I lived in solitude in the country and noticed how the monotony of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind.~Albert Einstein
My kids are on fall vacation...
We've had virtually non-stop rain for the past two weeks...
I'm in competition for control of every moment of my day.
Any time I even contemplate sitting down for a moment of peace and reflection, a four-year old needs to go to the bathroom or is desperate for a wardrobe change... or a 6 year old wants me to see his cool spaceship or prepare a snack... or an 8 year old wants to bake something together or fix something
I give the kids their choice of limited screen time each day, but this much rain has been a real challenge. On the rare occasions when the weather has been nice, I've run the kids outdoors as fast as I possibly can -- just to get them (and me!) moving.
To be honest, I've missed my writing a great deal. When I do have a silent moment, my ears are ringing from the noise.
I've never been one to wish my children back to school or anything, so I'm going to whisper this really quietly...
I want my solitude back.
Even just a little bit would be nice. A few hours a day to think and to write and to be master of my own destiny.
I want to be able to make decisions without being questioned about why I'm doing what I'm doing. I want a solid hour when no one is peppering me with questions about the nature of the universe and, alternately, what we are having for supper in five hours. I want to pretend there is a hierarchy of necessary information, where all questions do not demand an immediate explanation.
I am tired of complaining. Complaints are the frustrated spirit's attempt at reflection. But it takes time to break through the negativity and the cooped-up feeling.
Time is what I do not have.
So, I'll tread water and wait. And I'll grab a few moments, like this one, to put my thoughts into words...
And I'll ask -- how do you claim time when life is too busy? When you're waiting for the schedule to clear?
- Midwest Mom
And if, like me, you're in desperate need of rainy day activities, here's a fun resource: Spaghetti Box Kids. Keep it in your pantry -- you never know when you may need it.