Wednesday, October 14, 2009

The Waiting game...


I lived in solitude in the country and noticed how the monotony of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind.
~Albert Einstein



My kids are on fall vacation...

We've had virtually non-stop rain for the past two weeks...

Which means...

I'm in competition for control of every moment of my day.

Any time I even contemplate sitting down for a moment of peace and reflection, a four-year old needs to go to the bathroom or is desperate for a wardrobe change... or a 6 year old wants me to see his cool spaceship or prepare a snack... or an 8 year old wants to bake something together or fix something frivolous vital that's just broken... Then, there's the inevitable bickering that results from the same people sharing the same space for tens of gray-weather days.

I give the kids their choice of limited screen time each day, but this much rain has been a real challenge. On the rare occasions when the weather has been nice, I've run the kids outdoors as fast as I possibly can -- just to get them (and me!) moving.

To be honest, I've missed my writing a great deal. When I do have a silent moment, my ears are ringing from the noise.

I've never been one to wish my children back to school or anything, so I'm going to whisper this really quietly...

I want my solitude back.

Even just a little bit would be nice. A few hours a day to think and to write and to be master of my own destiny.

I want to be able to make decisions without being questioned about why I'm doing what I'm doing. I want a solid hour when no one is peppering me with questions about the nature of the universe and, alternately, what we are having for supper in five hours. I want to pretend there is a hierarchy of necessary information, where all questions do not demand an immediate explanation.

I am tired of complaining. Complaints are the frustrated spirit's attempt at reflection. But it takes time to break through the negativity and the cooped-up feeling.

Time is what I do not have.

So, I'll tread water and wait. And I'll grab a few moments, like this one, to put my thoughts into words...

And I'll ask -- how do you claim time when life is too busy? When you're waiting for the schedule to clear?

- Midwest Mom

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And if, like me, you're in desperate need of rainy day activities, here's a fun resource: Spaghetti Box Kids. Keep it in your pantry -- you never know when you may need it.

3 comments:

  1. I'm desperately trying to figure that out. A week and a half plus of sick kids, sick husband has zapped every ounce of patience and coping skills I thought I had. It's hard when we don't get "me, myself time". I love my kids, I love having them here, but the 24 hour neediness of people not feeling well is killing me.

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  2. Oh that is rough. You can't lock them in a room, eh? What about locking yourself in a room? Rainy days and vacation days should NOT happen together!

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  3. My girls are in 5th and 7th grade now... and boy how I remember the days when they were younger. I still get the question, "What can I do?" which drives me crazy! :)
    I write about MOMENTS with the people we love...Hope you'll read!

    From my post at www.strongmothers.com/archives/332

    There is a quote by Eugene Kennedy that reads, “The real test of friendship is: can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?”

    If I trade out a couple of words it sums up my thoughts nicely. “The real test of parenting is: can you literally do nothing with your kids? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?” I believe this is where the lasting memories are created.

    I try to find time EARLY in the morning when everyone's asleep (including the dog)and the only noise is my clicking on the computer keys and the coffeepot making my morning brew! :)

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